Being a reader

Everyone in the world is different, we all know this. However, certain people are similar, see the world the same way. Values, upbringing, education, all of this varies from person to person. However, the gifts with which you were born cannot be explained. Some people can run faster, jump higher or sing better than others. Some are prone to depression, or alcoholism. Some see the world as a dark and lonely place, others, as the most beautiful thing in the universe. Some can see beyond the ordinary, see what makes everything so beautifully extraordinary.

When we are born, we are either born readers, or non-readers. Being born a reader is the greatest honor and privilege there is. It allows us to become one with the characters on the page, to see and feel a world much different than our own. To be a reader, is to identify with these fictional characters in such a way that they no longer are fictional. They are there, waiting for us; words of wisdom on ink pages, their presence always comforting. A reader lives a thousand lives within the one they have, and gets to know so many kinds of people on such a deep level that it helps them deal with real people. If you are lucky enough, you find that one character, the one that you know is who you are, and it helps you have a deeper understanding of yourself. Once you find that one book, that one character, your whole view of the world shifts, and you begin to see all the beauty it holds. You see everything unfolding like a plot. Everything is interconnected, and if you are also a writer, you understand how all these strings eventually come together to weave the fabric of the world. Once you understand this, everything that happens has a reason. You are like a character in a book, you go along your path, not knowing what the end of the book holds for you. You can't skip ahead, there are no detours, only the long way around. You have to go through everything the author wants you to, because in the end, all of those experiences are the things that are going to help you make the difficult choices, the seemingly impossible ones. When tears are streaming down your face, when you think you've made the wrong choices, pick up that book again and give it another read. Remember that even though it seems hard now, you can get through. Its one kink in the long journey one little detour amongst hundreds. You will fall apart, you will be brought to your knees, you will fail. But there are people out there ready to put you back together and help you back on your feet. You will live the death of your innocence, and at some point, the death of people you love. It will hurt, and it will be unbearable, but your burden does not have to be just yours to bear.

You are a character in a book, even though your life is mundane and ordinary, you are the main protagonist in your life. You, and only you, gets to decide what happens in your life. If something makes you unhappy, stop doing the thing. If people treat you like crap, stop talking to them. Take control of your life, show them who you are, and let them know that you are worth getting to know. Everyone around you is different, and no, you won't get along with everyone, but you can at least say that you tried.

Fictional characters help us understand ourselves in a way that is impossible to explain. Its like looking at yourself from above, watching yourself do and say all these things, and know in your core that this is who you are. When they react to things, you think that you would never react like that, but in the end, you do.

Every character, as well as every person has their own journey to follow. Yes, free will is a major part of what makes us human, but no matter what we choose, there are some things that are out of our control. However, how we react to certain things, like the death of a loved one, can send us on a path we would never have expected. Authors use this to send their characters on a destiny they have chosen for them, and use death to make them capable of becoming a better person, of wanting a better world for the ones who come after them, or simply for themselves. They also use this to try and mend the characters, as well as themselves, because only through writing and reading about experiences like these can we reach a deeper level of understanding of the situation at hand, and only then can we ever hope to know ourselves well enough to predict how we will react in the future. Does that not help us mend the pieces the world believes to be broken? Or does it simply prove to ourselves that we are not broken as people, but as a society?

Since I was young, I have always known this: Life damages us, everyone. We can't escape that damage. But now, I am also learning this: We can be mended. We mend each other. (Roth, 526)

Roth, Veronica. Alliegent, Katherine Tegen Books, 2013.

Introduction

In this first post, I'll try my best to convey who I am in the most concise way possible. I am a young woman, who loves to write. I love fiction novels most of all, but do enjoy a thriller from time to time. I am not a fan of the romantic genra, but appreciate those types of novels for what they are. I adore action movies, yet I dislike horror. I love music, of all genres. For me, if the song itself has a meaning, or a message that affects me personnally, then that makes it a good song.
I am also a strong believer in the feminism mouvement. Now, this last bit is quite controversial, but I assure you it is quite simple. I believe in gender equality. I want to see the end of name-calling, and slut-shaming. I want equal pay for woman. I want men to stop seeing woman as sexual objects, and more as people, as life companions, friends, family, equals. But I also believe that woman need to stop using feminism as a way to bring down men. That is not feminism. Feminism is about equality for everyone, no matter your gender, and not about putting women on top of the world.
I see the world as a very complexe system of coincidences. I believe that everything happens for a reason, but also that things are meant to happen. We are told we have free will, yet we are told all our lives that we must to this, we cannot do that. We can chose to ignore these demands made by society, but doing so brings dire consequences. We have free will, but I believe it is an illusion, made to keep us all in check. The only people history rememebers, are the ones that break the rules. The ones that go against society, either alone or with a few followers. Those are the people we should aspire to be, the people that changed the world. We should aspire to change the world, to make it a better place for us and future generations.
I aspire to be a writer. People have told me that it is insane, that only the really good ones get there, and make a living off of it. People have dismissed me as a child, as a teenage girl who didn't know what she wanted. But I know what I want. I want to write for a living, I want to make readers feel for characters that are a part of me. I want them to learn lessons through these characters. I want to show the world a universe bigger than our own. I want to spend my days with a pen in my hands, writing in a notebook at a coffee shop. I want to spend my days editing my stories. I want to feel the satisfaction of walking by a bookstore, and seeing my hard work on display. This is not a phase. This is my dream. I feel it in every fibre of my being, in every breath I take. In everything I do. I have ideas, that I believe are good. I have passion. I believe that I need to believe in myself so I can finish what I started. Writing is a way of life, not a job. Writing is something that is part talent, but most part hard work.
I want to be a writer, which is why I've started this blog. Writting is my passion. I want to start connecting with the people of the world. I want to share my thoughts with the world, my opinions, my ideas. To have exchanges with people, and keep learning new things about the strange world we live in.

The world is a dark and twisted place. Yet we find joy in the strangest places. This is the first post of many, my personal documentation of what I am going through in life. My posts will reflect what is going on in my day-to-day life, conflicts I have witnessed or been a part of. My thoughts on what happened during the day